The Confession Route

By: James Blackwood

The thing about driving nights in Detroit is that the city shows you its real face after midnight. Not the renaissance bullshit they feed the tourists downtown, not the hipster makeover in Corktown, but the real Detroit—the one that's been bleeding out since before Malik Washington was born, the one that whispers its secrets through broken streetlights and abandoned houses that look like knocked-out teeth in a boxer's smile.

Malik had been driving for RideShare for three years now, ever since the Hamtramck plant shut down and took his twenty-year career with it. Three years of watching his city through a windshield, collecting drunk college kids from Wayne State, ferrying nurses to and from midnight shifts at Henry Ford Hospital, and listening—always listening—to the stories people felt compelled to tell a stranger they'd never see again.

That's what his car had become: a rolling confessional. Maybe it was the darkness, maybe it was the anonymity, or maybe it was just something about Malik's face—his daughter Keisha said he had "resting therapist face"—but people told him things. Secret things. Dark things.

The woman who got in his car at 11:47 PM on October 15th was different, though. Malik would remember that timestamp forever, burned into his brain like a brand.

She was waiting outside the Guardian Building, standing in that way rich people stand—like they own the air around them. European, maybe Russian from the cheekbones, late thirties, wearing a coat that probably cost more than Malik made in two months. When she slid into the backseat, the car filled with the scent of expensive perfume and something else, something that made Malik think of formaldehyde and funeral homes.

"Good evening," she said, her accent barely there, like she'd spent years scrubbing it away. "2847 Palmer Park Boulevard, please."

Malik punched in the address—nice neighborhood, old money—and pulled into traffic. The rain that had been threatening all day finally started, fat drops exploding against the windshield like tiny bombs.

They drove in silence for maybe three minutes before she started talking.

"I'm going to kill my husband tomorrow."

Malik's hands tightened on the wheel, but he kept his eyes on the road. In three years, he'd heard a lot of wild shit. Drug deals, affairs, embezzlement schemes that would make the news jealous. He'd learned to let it wash over him, to be the river rock that the water flows around.

"He'll be in his study at 3:17 PM," she continued, her voice flat and measured like she was reading a grocery list. "He always takes his coffee there after lunch. Turkish coffee, very strong, with two sugars. He thinks I don't know about the sugar—he's supposed to be watching his diabetes—but I know everything."

The wipers squeaked across the glass. Malik glanced in the rearview mirror. The woman was staring straight ahead, not at him, not at anything really. Her eyes were like broken windows.

"I'll use the letter opener," she said. "The one his father gave him, with the ivory handle—illegal ivory, from before the ban. It's very sharp. I sharpen it myself, every week, when he's at his club. The carotid artery is surprisingly accessible if you know where to cut. Medical school was useful for something, after all."

Malik had picked up plenty of drunk people who talked about wanting to kill their spouses. This was different. This was specific. This was rehearsed.

"The blood will spray exactly three feet and seven inches. I've done the calculations based on his blood pressure—148 over 95, last reading. It will hit the Chagall print he loves so much, the one with the blue horse. He paid ninety thousand dollars for it at auction. The blood will look like roses on the blue."

She leaned forward slightly, and Malik could see her face in the mirror now. She was beautiful in that severe way some women are, all angles and edges.

"After, I'll call 911. I'll scream. I practiced screaming in the basement, where no one can hear. It has to sound real. Shocked. Horrified. They'll find me holding him, covered in his blood, trying to stop the bleeding that can't be stopped. The security footage will show I was at the university all day. My keycard, my parking pass, the cameras—all will confirm I was in my lab until 4 PM. Time of death will be 3:17. Perfect alibi."

They were stopped at a red light now, rain hammering the roof. Malik could hear his own heartbeat.

"Ma'am," he started, but she wasn't done.

"The letter opener will have only his fingerprints. A suicide, they'll think at first. But no note, no reason. Then they'll check his computer, find the emails from his mistress—Svetlana, twenty-three, from Minsk, studying at Wayne on a student visa he sponsored. They'll find the threats she's been sending since he broke it off. They'll find the keylogger I installed that shows she knew his schedule, knew when he'd be alone. They'll find the fifty thousand dollars he transferred to her account last week—hush money, they'll assume, but really from me, routed through his computer while he slept off his Ambien."

The light turned green. Malik drove.

"Svetlana will be deported. She'll protest her innocence, but who believes a foreign girl who was sleeping with a married man? She'll spend maybe ten years in prison back home. Belarus doesn't play around with murder, even suspected murder. Meanwhile, I'll inherit everything. The house, the investments, the life insurance—three million dollars, double indemnity for violent death."

They were in Palmer Park now, big houses lurking behind perfect lawns, windows glowing yellow in the rain.

"Here," she said, though they were still a block from the address she'd given.

Malik pulled over. She handed him two hundred-dollar bills.

"Keep the change," she said. "And forget this conversation. You were never here."

She got out and disappeared into the rain before Malik could respond. He sat there for a full minute, engine running, watching the empty street. Then he drove home, told himself it was just another crazy passenger, and tried to sleep.

The next day, October 16th, Malik was eating leftover Chinese food and watching the news when the breaking story came on.

"Prominent Detroit physician Dr. Michael Kozlov was found dead in his Palmer Park home this afternoon," the anchor said. "Police responded to a 911 call at 4:23 PM..."

Malik's hand froze, lo mein noodles dangling from his chopsticks.

The details were exactly as she'd said. Every. Single. One. The letter opener, the time, the mistress who was already in custody. The only difference was the 911 call came at 4:23, not immediately after 3:17. But that made sense—she'd said she would hold him, try to stop the bleeding. Make it look real.

Malik threw up in the kitchen sink, then called in sick to work. He spent the next three days in a kind of fever dream, jumping every time his phone rang, certain the police would somehow know, somehow connect him to this. But they didn't. Why would they? He was nobody. A ghost who drove other ghosts around a dying city.

On October 20th, he went back to work. He needed the money—Keisha's college tuition wasn't going to pay itself—and sitting at home was making him crazy. Maybe work would help, maybe the routine would make him forget.

The first few rides were normal. A couple heading to dinner in Greektown. A businessman flying out of Metro Airport. An old woman going to visit her sister in the hospital. Normal people with normal secrets or no secrets at all.

Then, at 11:47 PM—the exact same time as five nights ago—his app pinged. Pickup at the Guardian Building.

Malik's hands shook as he accepted the ride. It couldn't be. She was probably in custody by now, or at least under investigation. But when he pulled up, there she was. Same coat, same posture, same perfect face.

She got in without a word. This time, the address was different: "8800 East Jefferson. The old Uniroyal plant."

Malik knew it. Everyone in Detroit knew the abandoned Uniroyal plant, six stories of broken windows and rusted dreams, the kind of place where bodies turned up and nobody was surprised.

They drove in silence for ten minutes before she spoke.

"I'm going to kill my daughter tomorrow."

Malik almost drove off the road. He steadied the wheel, heart hammering.

"She's not really my daughter," the woman continued in that same flat tone. "Foster child. Aisha. Sixteen. Beautiful girl. Smart. Full scholarship to MIT next year, if she lives that long."

"Lady, what the fuck—"

"Don't interrupt," she said, and there was something in her voice that made Malik's teeth ache. "She'll be at the abandoned plant tomorrow at 3:17 PM. She goes there to practice violin where no one complains about the noise. Third floor, the room with the yellow door. Someone painted it yellow in 1987. I looked it up."

Malik wanted to pull over, wanted to throw her out of his car, but his hands wouldn't obey. They kept driving, steady on the wheel.

"I'll use the violin string," she said. "E string, the highest pitch, the thinnest but strongest. She won't hear me coming—she plays with such concentration, such passion. It will be quick. Merciful, really. Better than what's coming for her if I don't."

"What's coming for her?" Malik heard himself ask.

The woman leaned forward again, and in the mirror, her eyes were black pools.

"The same thing that's coming for everyone I tell you about," she said. "The same thing that came for my husband. The same thing that's been coming since before Detroit started dying, since before the first factory closed, since before the first person thought they could build something permanent in this temporary world."

They reached the plant. She got out without paying, vanishing into the shadows between the fence gaps. Malik sat there, engine running, trying to make sense of what was happening. Then he did the only thing he could think of: he called the police.

The desk sergeant who took his call sounded tired and skeptical. An anonymous tip about a potential murder at the Uniroyal plant tomorrow afternoon. They'd send a patrol car to check it out, sure, whatever. Malik could hear the eye roll through the phone.

But he couldn't let it go. The next day, October 21st, he drove to the plant himself at 3 PM. He parked across the street, watching. At 3:10, he saw a young Black girl with a violin case picking her way through the fence. Aisha. Had to be.

Malik was out of his car and running before he could think. He crashed through the fence, tetanus be damned, and ran into the building. The stairs were treacherous, littered with glass and worse, but he took them three at a time. Second floor, third floor, following the sound of music—beautiful music, Beethoven maybe, he didn't know classical but he knew beauty when he heard it.

The yellow door was easy to find. He burst through it.

The girl spun around, startled, bow screeching across strings. She was alone.

"You need to get out of here," Malik gasped, out of breath. "Right now. Someone's coming to hurt you."

The girl—Aisha, it had to be Aisha—looked at him with wide, frightened eyes. "Who are you?"

"That doesn't matter. We need to—"

That's when he heard the sirens. The police, responding to his tip. But something was wrong. Too many sirens. Too close.

"They're here for you," Aisha said, and her voice was different now. Older. Familiar.

Malik turned back to her, and she wasn't a sixteen-year-old girl anymore. She was the woman from his car, Elena Kozlov, holding the violin like a weapon.

"No," she said, "I'm not Elena either. Elena's been dead for six months. Cancer. Buried in Woodlawn Cemetery. You can check if you want."

The sirens were getting closer. Malik could hear feet on the stairs, shouts, radio chatter.

"Then who—what are you?"

She smiled, and it was the saddest smile Malik had ever seen.

"I'm Detroit," she said. "Or part of it, anyway. The part that confesses. The part that needs to tell someone about all the things that are going to happen, all the things that have already happened, all the things that are happening right now in every abandoned building and empty house and broken heart in this city."

"That's insane."

"Is it? You've been driving these streets for three years. You've heard the confessions. The real ones and the false ones, the ones that come true and the ones that don't. You're the keeper of secrets, Malik Washington. The guardian of guilt. And now you're going to be the one with the biggest secret of all."

The police burst through the door, guns drawn. "Detroit Police! Hands where we can see them!"

Malik raised his hands. The woman—the thing that looked like a woman—was gone. There was only a violin, lying on the floor in a spreading pool of blood. Fresh blood. Impossible blood.

"Malik Washington," one of the cops said, "you're under arrest for the murder of Michael Kozlov."

"What? No, I didn't—"

"We have a witness who saw you leave the scene. We have your DNA in his house—"

"That's impossible! I've never been to his house!"

But even as he said it, Malik remembered that night, the woman getting out a block away from the address she'd given. Had he gotten out of the car? Had he followed her? He couldn't remember. The days were blurring together, bleeding into each other like watercolors in the rain.

They cuffed him, read him his rights. As they led him down the stairs, Malik saw her one more time—standing in the shadows of the second floor, watching. She put a finger to her lips. *Shh.*

The trial was a sensation. RideShare driver kills passenger's husband after becoming obsessed with her. The prosecution had evidence Malik couldn't explain: his fingerprints in places he'd never been, security footage that couldn't exist, witness testimonies from people he'd never met. His lawyer, a public defender who looked like she hadn't slept since law school, did her best, but the evidence was overwhelming.

Detective Angela Chen was the only one who seemed to have doubts. She interviewed Malik five times, each time asking the same questions in different ways, like she was trying to solve a puzzle that had pieces from different boxes.

"The thing I don't get," she said during their last interview, "is the confession. You keep talking about this woman who confessed to you, but Elena Kozlov was in Belarus visiting her dying mother. We have passport records, airline tickets, hotel receipts. She wasn't even in the country."

"I know what I heard," Malik said.

"I believe you," Chen said quietly. "That's what scares me. I've been a cop in this city for ten years, and I've seen things—patterns that don't make sense, crimes that predict themselves, confessions that come true backward. There's something wrong with Detroit, Mr. Washington. Something that's been wrong for a long time."

She leaned closer, lowering her voice. "There are others like you. Drivers, bartenders, hairdressers—people who hear confessions. Some of them are in prison. Some of them are in psychiatric hospitals. Some of them are dead. But they all have the same story: someone told them exactly what was going to happen, and then it did, and somehow they ended up taking the blame."

"So you believe me?"

"I believe Detroit is eating itself," Chen said. "I believe this city has developed a kind of consciousness, a collective guilt that needs to confess its sins. And I believe you're just the latest confessor to take the fall."

She stood up to leave, then turned back. "My grandmother was from Guangzhou. She used to tell me stories about hungry ghosts—spirits so consumed by desire that they could never be satisfied. She said cities could become hungry ghosts too, when they'd lost too much, when the emptiness inside them became greater than what remained. They start feeding on their own people, consuming their stories, their guilt, their futures."

The trial ended with a guilty verdict. Life without parole. Malik's daughters came to see him once, tears streaming down their faces, asking him why, why, why. He had no answer that would make sense.

He'd been in Jackson State Prison for three months when the letters started coming. No return address, but he knew who they were from. Each one was a confession, detailed and specific, about crimes that would happen in Detroit tomorrow, next week, next month. Each one signed the same way: "Your Passenger."

He tried to stop reading them, but they kept coming. He tried to warn the authorities, but who believes a convicted murderer? He watched the news when he could, saw the crimes happen exactly as described, saw other innocent people arrested, convicted, destroyed.

The last letter came on a Tuesday. It was different from the others.

"Dear Malik," it began. "This is my final confession. Tomorrow, at 3:17 PM, Detroit will finally die. Not the slow death it's been dying for decades, but the real death. The last factory will close. The last family will leave. The last light will go out. And when it does, all of us—you, me, everyone who's been carrying this city's confessions—will be free.

"But that's not really true, is it? Cities don't die. They just transform, become something else, something hungry and patient and eternal. Detroit will become a ghost city, but ghosts have power. Ghosts remember. Ghosts confess.

"You were a good listener, Malik. The best I've had in years. Your car was a perfect confessional—enclosed, moving, temporary. A liminal space where truth could exist for just a moment before dissolving into the night.

"I'm sorry for what happened to you. But someone had to carry the weight of these confessions. Someone had to be the sin-eater. In the old days, they used to pay sin-eaters to take on the guilt of the dying. You did it for free, just by being kind, by having a face that invited confession.

"The woman you knew as Elena Kozlov really did kill her husband. She really did confess to you. But she confessed after she did it, not before. Time doesn't work the way you think it does in a dying city. Effect can come before cause. Confession can come before sin. The future can bleed backward into the past.

"You're in prison for a crime you didn't commit, but also for all the crimes you heard about and didn't stop. You're guilty and innocent, confessor and condemned. You are Detroit's paradox, its broken heart, its final witness.

"Tonight, dream of driving. Dream of empty streets and broken streetlights. Dream of passengers who get in your car and never really leave. Dream of confessions that echo forever in the darkness between destinations.

"Your Passenger"

Malik folded the letter carefully and put it under his pillow. That night, he did dream of driving. He dreamed of his car moving through empty Detroit streets, past abandoned houses that watched with broken-window eyes. In his dream, the passenger seat was never empty. Sometimes it was Elena. Sometimes it was Aisha. Sometimes it was Detective Chen. Sometimes it was his daughters, grown old, telling him about lives he'd never see.

And sometimes—most times—it was the city itself, sitting beside him in a form that hurt to perceive directly, confessing all its sins in a voice like rustling newspapers and distant sirens and the last breath of dying factories.

"I killed them all," Detroit would say. "Every job, every dream, every hope. I ate them like a cancer eats cells, replacing what was healthy with what was malignant. I did it because I was hungry. I did it because I was afraid. I did it because that's what cities do when they're dying—they take everyone down with them."

Malik would drive and listen, because that's what he did. That's what he'd always done. And in the dream, he understood that this was his purpose, his burden, his strange honor: to be the one who heard the city's final confession, who carried its guilt like a stone in his chest.

He woke to the sound of sirens—there were always sirens in Jackson—and knew that somewhere in Detroit, someone was getting into another car, another confessional, telling another driver about something that had already happened tomorrow. The cycle continuing, the city feeding on itself, the confessions flowing like blood through the streets.

Malik Washington would serve his life sentence. He would die in prison, probably, an old man who insisted on his innocence to the end. But he would know the truth—that he was guilty of listening, guilty of knowing, guilty of being the repository for a city's sins.

And late at night, when the prison was quiet and he could almost hear the ghost of his car's engine, he would close his eyes and receive new confessions—not in letters now, but in dreams. The city speaking directly into his mind, telling him about all the crimes that were happening, had happened, would happen in the endless now of Detroit's dying.

He was the confessor. The sin-eater. The keeper of secrets.

And the secrets kept coming, flowing through the darkness like blood through the arteries of a dying giant, each one a small death, a tiny apocalypse, a whispered admission that the city had failed its people and the people had failed their city and everyone was guilty and no one was guilty and the confessions would never, ever stop.

In his cell, Malik Washington listened to them all.

Because that's what he did.

That's what he'd always done.

And in the end, maybe that was enough—to be the witness, the listener, the one who knew the truth even if no one believed him. Maybe that was his confession: that he'd heard the city dying and done nothing to save it, because how do you save something that wants to die? How do you absolve something that feeds on guilt?

You don't.

You just drive through the darkness, listening to the confessions, carrying them with you until they become your own.

Until you become Detroit's final prayer, whispered into the darkness:

*Forgive us. We knew not what we were doing.*

*But we did it anyway.*

*And we'll do it again tomorrow.*

*At 3:17.*