Things We Leave Behind

By: Margaret Thornfield

The fluorescent lights hummed their familiar tune, the one Marcus had memorized after six months of night shifts. Tuesday, 11:47 PM. The big industrial washers churned in rows like metal hearts, steady and indifferent. He pushed his mop bucket past the folding tables where Janet stood, separating whites from colors even though the customer had already gone.

"You don't need to do that," he said.

She didn't look up. "I know what I need to do."

This was their routine. Marcus cleaned. Janet folded abandoned clothes, the ones people forgot or didn't care enough to retrieve. She'd wash them again sometimes, fold them neat as department store displays, stack them in the lost-and-found bin that nobody ever checked.

Outside, Phoenix stretched flat and bright under the sodium lights. Through the windows, they could see the Walgreens across the street, the check-cashing place, the taqueria that had closed three months back. Marcus had been in Arizona two years now. Two years since Adaeze took the kids to Houston, to her sister's place, to the man with the accounting degree and the house with a pool.

"Your lawyer call you back?" Janet asked. She was holding a child's shirt, pink with a unicorn on it, examining a stain.

"Not yet."

"Mine wants another fifteen hundred. Says we need to file some motion." She sprayed the stain, rubbed it with her thumb. "Fifteen hundred I don't have."

Marcus knew about not having. His second job at the warehouse paid eleven-fifty an hour. After the lawyer, after the room he rented, after the money he sent to his mother in Lagos, he had enough for rice, beans, the occasional chicken. He'd sold his car last month. Now he took the bus, or walked the three miles when the bus didn't come.

The bell chimed. A man entered, maybe thirty-five, wearing a suit that looked expensive but fit wrong, too tight in the shoulders, too long in the sleeves. His eyes darted around the empty laundromat. Marcus noticed things like this now, the way people carried their troubles in their shoulders, their quick steps.

"We close at two," Janet said without looking up.

"I just need..." The man pulled a duffel bag from his shoulder, heavy-looking, black canvas. "Can I just leave this? I mean, start a load?"

"Machine takes quarters. Eight quarters for a regular wash."

The man patted his pockets, pulled out a twenty. "Can you make change?"

Janet pointed to the change machine by the door. While the man fed his bill into the slot, Marcus watched him in the security mirror mounted in the corner. The man's hands shook slightly. Quarters rattled into the metal tray.

The man dumped the bag's contents into a washer without sorting, without checking pockets. Clothes, looked like. He pushed quarters into the slot, pressed the button for hot water, turned and walked out fast. The bell chimed again.

"Didn't even put in detergent," Janet said.

They watched the car pull away, a white sedan, could have been a rental. The washer began its cycle, water rushing in.

"You hungry?" Marcus asked. He had a sandwich in the break room, peanut butter and honey, but he'd eaten the same thing for lunch.

"I'm good."

She wasn't good. Marcus had seen her eat the day-old donuts from the Walgreens dumpster, had noticed how she changed clothes in the bathroom some mornings, how her car in the parking lot never seemed to move. But they didn't talk about these things. They talked about customers, about the weather, about everything except what mattered.

Thirty-five minutes later, the washer buzzed. The man hadn't returned.

"I'll move it to the dryer," Marcus said.

"Leave it. Not our job to—"

But Marcus had already opened the washer door. He reached in, pulled out wet clothes. Men's shirts, jeans, a jacket. Then his hand hit something solid. Canvas, still dry. A bag inside the bag.

"What is it?" Janet moved closer.

Marcus pulled it out. Another duffel, smaller, zipped tight. Heavy. He set it on the folding table, looked at Janet, looked at the door, looked back at the bag.

"Don't," Janet said, but her voice carried no conviction.

Marcus pulled the zipper. They both stepped back.

Money. Stacks of it, bundled in rubber bands. Hundreds, fifties, twenties. More money than Marcus had ever seen outside a bank. Beneath the money, a manila envelope. Janet reached for it, stopped, reached again. Inside the envelope: a child's drawing, crayon on white paper, two stick figures holding hands, "DADDY AND ME" written in shaky letters. A photograph, wallet-sized, of a young boy, maybe five, missing his front teeth. A business card for a family law attorney. A folded document that looked legal, lots of small print, the word "CUSTODY" visible at the top.

"Jesus," Janet whispered.

Marcus counted the money, moving his lips. Forty thousand dollars. Maybe forty-two.

They stood there, the fluorescent lights humming, the dryer in the corner tumbling someone else's clothes with a rhythmic thump. Outside, a bus passed, lit up and empty.

"We should call the police," Marcus said.

"Should we?"

"It's not ours."

"No," Janet agreed. "It's not."

But neither of them reached for the phone. Marcus thought about his sons in Houston, about the last time he'd called and heard them call another man 'daddy' in the background. Janet touched the edge of one stack, just barely, like it might burn her.

"My husband," Janet said suddenly. "Ex-husband. He cleaned out our savings. Twenty-three years of marriage, and he transferred everything to an account I couldn't touch. His lawyer said it was all legal. Said I couldn't prove my contributions."

Marcus knew he should zip the bag back up, put it behind the counter, wait for the man to return. Instead, he said, "My wife told the lawyer I was violent. Said she was scared. I never... I never even raised my voice to her. But the judge, he looked at me, big Black man from Africa, and he believed her."

The money sat between them like a question nobody wanted to ask.

"Forty thousand," Janet said. "Twenty each."

"We don't know where it came from."

"We know enough." She held up the custody paper. "Man in a custody fight. Expensive suit. Bag full of cash. You think this is clean money?"

Marcus's phone buzzed. His lawyer. He let it go to voicemail. The call would cost him another hundred dollars just to return.

"I could get my kids back," he said quietly. "With money. Real lawyer. Could fight for them."

"I could get an apartment. A real address. Maybe get my teaching certificate renewed."

They stood on opposite sides of the table, the money between them like a river they were deciding whether to cross.

"There's a child," Marcus said, pointing to the drawing.

"There's always a child." Janet's voice turned hard. "You think my husband thought about our children when he left? You think your wife—"

"Don't."

"I'm just saying. The world doesn't play fair. Why should we?"

A customer came in, college kid with a basket of laundry. Marcus moved the duffel bag behind the counter while Janet helped the kid figure out the machines. Normal voices, normal instructions, everything normal except for the forty thousand dollars sitting next to the lost-and-found bin.

When the kid settled in with his phone and earbuds, Janet came back to the counter.

"What if we wait?" she said. "Give it a week. If he comes back, we give it to him. If not..."

"If not, then what? It becomes ours?"

"It becomes... available."

Marcus thought about his mother in Lagos, her medications she couldn't afford, her calls getting shorter because she was rationing her phone minutes. He thought about his boys, how their voices were already changing, already forgetting the Yoruba words he'd taught them.

"One week," he said.

But they both knew the man wouldn't come back. Something about how he'd walked out, how he hadn't looked back, how he'd paid with a twenty for a two-dollar wash. This was money you left behind when you were running from something or toward something, when you'd already made the choice to let go.

Janet took the child's drawing, smoothed it out on the counter. "My daughter drew pictures like this. Before."

"Before what?"

"Before she stopped talking to me. Said I was toxic. That's the word she used. Toxic. Learned it in therapy, the therapy her father pays for."

The washing machine with the man's actual clothes buzzed. Marcus moved them to a dryer, added quarters from his own pocket. He didn't know why. Maybe because even abandoned things deserved to be completed.

"We're not bad people," Janet said when he came back.

"No," Marcus agreed. "We're not."

"Just unlucky."

"Very unlucky."

They divided the night into shifts. One would stay by the counter with the bag, the other would clean or fold or pretend to read the old magazines from 2018 that nobody had thrown away. At 3 AM, a man who might have been homeless or might have just worked construction came in to wash a single pair of pants. At 4 AM, a woman with two kids asleep in a stroller did three loads while crying quietly by the window.

"You see?" Janet said after the woman left. "Everybody's fighting something."

Dawn came slow, Phoenix sky going from black to purple to pale orange. The day shift would arrive soon – Hector, who always brought his own coffee and complained about the night crew leaving things wrong even when they didn't.

"I looked him up," Janet said, holding up her phone. "The attorney on the business card. He's real. Expensive. The kind that handles big divorces, international custody."

"So?"

"So the money's probably hidden assets. Maybe from the wife. Maybe he's trying to keep it from being divided."

Marcus thought about this. Money that was already stolen, in a way. Money that was already outside the law. "That makes it better?"

"Doesn't make it worse."

Hector's truck pulled into the parking lot.

"Quick," Janet said.

They moved the bag to Janet's car, stuffed under the back seat with the clothes she lived out of, the toiletries, the pillow she used. Marcus saw it all, understood it all, said nothing.

"Tonight," she said. "We decide tonight."

Marcus nodded. Hector came in complaining about the floors being too wet, about the dryers not being cleared, about everything and nothing. Marcus and Janet left separately, like always, like nothing had changed.

But everything had changed.

Marcus walked the three miles to his room, thinking about the weight of the bag, the smell of the money, the way possibility felt like danger and salvation at the same time. He passed the shuttered taqueria, the check-cashing place already open with its line of tired faces, the Walgreens where Janet probably got those day-old donuts.

His phone rang. His lawyer.

"Marcus? We need to discuss your payment plan."

"I know," Marcus said. "I'm working on it."

"The court won't wait much longer. If you can't pay, you'll have to represent yourself."

"I understand."

"Do you? Because self-representation in an international custody case... Marcus, you'll lose them. Permanently."

Marcus stopped walking. In someone's yard, a sprinkler was running even though it was December, even though it was Phoenix and water was gold. Such waste. Such carelessness with precious things.

"How much?" he asked. "To fight properly. To have a real chance."

"Fifteen thousand. Maybe twenty. These cases, with the international component..."

"I'll call you back."

He hung up. Twenty thousand dollars. Half of what sat in Janet's car. Half of what could change everything.

That night, he arrived early. Janet's car was already there, parked in its usual spot. She was inside, folding clothes from the lost-and-found, matching socks that didn't have partners.

"Any word?" she asked. Meaning: had the man come back, had anyone called, had the universe somehow decided for them.

"Nothing."

She pulled the bag from her car, brought it inside, put it back behind the counter. They'd moved it so many times now it felt like theirs, like something they were protecting rather than stealing.

"I keep thinking about the drawing," she said.

"I know."

"But I also keep thinking about my car. Living in it. How last week a cop knocked on my window at 3 AM, told me to move along. How I had nowhere to move to."

Marcus understood. He'd been lucky to find the room, lucky the landlord didn't ask for documentation, lucky in ways that were running out.

A customer came in. Then another. A busy night for once, people washing comforters and rugs, big loads that took time. Marcus and Janet worked around them, their secret humming beneath every normal interaction.

At midnight, the door chimed. They both looked up, expecting maybe the man, maybe the police, maybe consequences taking shape. But it was a woman, young, maybe twenty-five, carrying a baby in a carrier. The baby was crying, had been crying from the looks of the woman's exhausted face.

"I'm sorry," she said. "I know it's late. The baby, he had an accident, all over everything. I don't have... my apartment building's machines are broken."

"It's fine," Janet said, her voice gentler than Marcus had heard it. "Washers are over there. You need detergent?"

"I... yes. I forgot. I'm sorry, I'm not usually..."

Janet gave her detergent from their supply, helped her load the machines while the baby continued crying. The woman bounced him, whispered to him, looked ready to cry herself.

"How old?" Janet asked.

"Four months. He's usually good, but tonight..."

"They know when we're stressed," Janet said. "They feel everything we feel."

The woman nodded, tears starting now. "My husband left. Last week. Said he wasn't ready to be a father. I don't know how to do this alone."

Marcus watched Janet's face change, something softening and hardening at the same time. She reached out, not quite touching the woman's shoulder.

"You will," Janet said. "You'll figure it out. We always do."

The woman went to sit by the window, rocking the baby. Marcus and Janet stood by the counter, the bag with forty thousand dollars at their feet, watching a young mother try to quiet her child while her life fell apart in a laundromat at midnight.

"We can't," Janet said quietly.

"No," Marcus agreed.

They both knew what they were saying no to, what they were giving up. Marcus thought about his sons, about the lawyer, about the fight he'd already lost. Janet touched the folding table like she was saying goodbye to something.

When the young mother finished her laundry, Janet helped her fold everything, showed her the trick to fitted sheets, gave her extra detergent to take home. The woman tried to pay for it, but Janet waved her off.

"We look out for each other here," Janet said.

After the woman left, they counted the money one more time. Still forty thousand. Still enough to change everything.

"There's a police station on 35th," Marcus said.

"I know."

They drove together in Janet's car, the bag between them. The police station was bright and official, full of uniformed certainty. They told their story to a desk sergeant who seemed skeptical, then to a detective who seemed tired, then filled out forms that asked questions they couldn't answer.

"You didn't look for identification in the bag?" the detective asked.

"We called you as soon as we found the money," Janet lied smoothly.

"And this man, can you describe him?"

They did, carefully, nothing too specific. The detective took notes, gave them a receipt, said they'd be in touch if no one claimed it.

"What happens if no one does?" Janet asked.

"After ninety days, if it's not claimed and not connected to any crime, you can petition for it. But honestly? This much cash? Someone always claims it."

Outside, they sat in Janet's car in silence. The sun was coming up again, another Phoenix dawn, pink and gold and full of heat even in December.

"We did the right thing," Marcus said.

"Did we?"

"Yes."

Janet started the car. "I need to sleep. Haven't been sleeping much lately."

"In your car?"

She looked at him sharply, then away. "It's temporary."

"I have a couch," Marcus said. "It's not much, but it's better than..."

"I don't need charity."

"It's not charity. It's..." He searched for the word. "It's what we do. We look out for each other."

She was quiet for a long time. Then: "Just for a few days. Until I figure something out."

They drove to Marcus's room, a converted garage behind a house, one window, one door, but clean and his. Janet looked around, taking in the careful organization, the photos of his sons on the small table, the law books he'd bought used, thinking he could represent himself.

"You're studying?" she asked.

"Trying to. But it's like learning a new language. And even if I learn it perfect, the judge will still see what he sees."

Janet sat on the couch, testing it. "Better than the car."

"Everything's better than a car."

They were quiet then, tired from the night, from the decision, from the weight of doing right when wrong would have been so much easier. Marcus made tea on his hot plate, gave Janet the only mug while he used a water glass.

"That woman tonight," Janet said. "With the baby."

"Yeah."

"That could have been me, twenty years ago. Was me, in a way."

"You have children?"

"Two. Grown now. My daughter's in Seattle, doesn't talk to me. My son's in the military, calls once a month out of duty."

"They'll come back."

"Maybe." She sipped the tea. "Your boys, they're young still. You have time."

"Not without money for lawyers."

"There are other ways to fight."

"Like what?"

Janet pulled out her phone, started typing. "Legal aid. Pro bono services. Law students who need practice. Look."

She showed him sites he hadn't found, resources he hadn't known existed. They spent the morning like that, searching for ways to fight without money, finding cracks in the system they could maybe slip through.

Two weeks later, a news story broke. A local businessman arrested for embezzlement, his assets frozen, his family interviewed on TV. Marcus recognized him immediately – the man from the laundromat, looking older in his mugshot, smaller without his too-tight suit.

"That's him," Janet said unnecessarily. They were at work again, another Tuesday night, the same fluorescent hum.

The news said he'd stolen from his company to pay for his custody battle, that he'd been hiding assets from both his employer and his ex-wife. The forty thousand had been part of nearly two hundred thousand in missing funds.

"We would have been caught," Marcus said. "If we'd kept it."

"Yeah."

But they both heard the other thing, the unspoken truth – that the man was guilty, that the money was already stolen, that maybe they could have gotten away with it. Maybe.

"I got approved," Janet said suddenly.

"For what?"

"Subsidized housing. One of those programs you found. I move in next week. It's not much, but..."

"It's yours."

"Yeah. It's mine."

Marcus had news too. A law student had agreed to help with his case, to file the motions his expensive lawyer had said were crucial. No guarantees, but a chance. A real chance.

They worked their shift, comfortable now in their routine, their shared understanding of how close they'd come to crossing a line, how hard it was to stay on the right side when the world pushed you so hard toward the wrong.

At the end of the night, as Hector's truck pulled into the parking lot, Janet said, "You know, we could have done it. Taken the money. Disappeared."

"No," Marcus said. "We couldn't have."

"Why not?"

Marcus thought about it, about all the reasons – practical, moral, legal. But what he said was: "Because we're the kind of people who fold abandoned clothes. Who give detergent to crying mothers. Who do the right thing even when no one's watching."

Janet smiled, the first real smile he'd seen from her. "Is that what we are?"

"That's what we are."

Hector came in, already complaining. Marcus and Janet left together this time, walking to their cars side by side. The Phoenix sun was rising again, reliable as heartbreak, reliable as hope.

"See you tonight?" Janet asked.

"I'll be here."

"Good. Someone needs to keep an eye on things. Never know what people might leave behind."

Marcus watched her drive away in the car that was no longer her home, then caught the bus to the room that was still his, to the phone calls with his sons he wouldn't give up on, to the life that was harder than it should be but was still, somehow, worth fighting for.

That night, he found a twenty-dollar bill in a washer, folded inside a pair of jeans. He put it in the register, made a note for Hector. It wasn't much, but it was something. It was what you did. You took care of the small things and hoped they added up to something bigger, something like dignity, something like grace.

The laundromat continued its cycle, wash and dry, wash and dry, people coming in with their dirty clothes and their broken lives, leaving with something clean, something folded, something ready to try again. Marcus and Janet worked their shifts, watched out for each other, held the line between desperate and decent.

Six months later, when Marcus won partial custody of his sons, when they came to visit for the first time, he brought them to the laundromat one night. Showed them the machines, the folding tables, the place where he'd learned the difference between taking what you want and earning what you need.

"It's boring," his younger son said.

"Yes," Marcus agreed. "It is."

"Then why do you like it?"

Marcus looked across the room to where Janet was teaching a teenager how to get gum out of fabric, patient and thorough.

"Because boring is where the good things happen," he said. "When no one's watching. When it doesn't count. That's when you find out who you really are."

His son didn't understand, not yet. But maybe one day he would. Maybe one day he'd remember his father choosing to be good when being good cost everything, choosing to be honest when dishonesty would have saved him.

The fluorescent lights hummed. The machines churned. Life went on, load by load, night by night, in the space between what we leave behind and what we carry forward.