What We Kept

By: Margaret Thornfield

Marcus got there first. He sat in his Accord with the engine running, air conditioning on high even though it was only May. The storage facility sprawled out like a small city of orange doors, each one holding someone's overflow life. He checked his phone. No messages. Demetri was twelve minutes late.

When the white F-150 pulled up, Marcus turned off his engine. His brother looked heavier, beard going gray. They stood apart in the asphalt heat, neither offering a hand.

"Unit 247," Marcus said.

"I know."

They walked. The wheels of Marcus's dolly squeaked. Demetri carried garbage bags and a roll of tape. Neither had brought boxes. Neither had thought that far ahead.

The lock was stiff. Marcus had to work it, jiggling the key their mother's lawyer had given him. Inside, the unit was ten by fifteen feet, stacked to the ceiling. The smell hit them—mothballs, old paper, something sweet gone bad.

"Jesus," Demetri said.

"She had the house. Why did she need this?"

They stood looking at it all. Boxes labeled in their mother's careful hand: "Winter Clothes," "Good Dishes," "Sewing Notions." A dresser missing two drawers. Three rolled carpets. A exercise bike with dust an inch thick.

"We could just pay another month," Demetri said.

"No."

They started with what was obvious trash. Newspapers from the 1990s. Phonebooks. A broken television. They worked without talking, making a pile outside the unit. Other people came and went from other units, loading and unloading their own mysteries.

After an hour, Marcus opened a box marked "Important Papers." Insurance forms, tax returns going back decades. Then, at the bottom, a manila envelope. Inside, photographs.

"Demetri."

His brother came over, sweat staining his shirt. The first photo showed their mother, young, maybe twenty-five, at what looked like a march. She held a sign: "UAW Supports Civil Rights." There were Black men and women around her, all walking together.

"That's Detroit," Demetri said, pointing at a building in the background. "That's the old Hudson's."

"1963, maybe '64," Marcus said, turning the photo over. No date.

More photos. Elena at rallies. Elena at what looked like union meetings. Elena with people they'd never seen, never heard mentioned. In one, she stood next to a tall Black woman, both of them laughing, arms linked.

"She never said anything," Demetri said.

"No."

They went through more boxes. Kitchen items they remembered from childhood. Christmas decorations. Then Demetri found the letters, bundled with blue ribbon in a shoebox.

"These are in Greek."

"You can read them?"

"Some. My Greek's shit, but..." Demetri sat on the concrete floor, unfolding one carefully. "It's dated 1971. 'My beloved Elena.'"

"That's three years after Dad died."

Demetri kept reading, translating slowly. "'I dream of your hands. I dream of your voice calling me from the kitchen. Why must we live this way, apart like strangers?'" He looked up. "It's signed 'Konstantin.'"

"Who the hell is Konstantin?"

There were dozens of letters, all from the same man, spanning from 1971 to 1975. Love letters. Passionate, desperate letters. Then they stopped.

"Maybe he died," Marcus said.

"Maybe she ended it."

In another box, receipts. Hundreds of them, organized by year in sandwich bags. Marcus almost put them in the trash pile, then noticed one from Western Union. A money transfer to Athens, Greece. Two hundred dollars. The date was three months ago.

"She was sending money to Greece?"

They found more receipts. Every month for the past fifteen years, two hundred dollars to the same account. The name on the account: Katerina Castellanos.

"You know any Castellanos?" Marcus asked.

"No."

They kept searching. In a tin that once held Danish cookies, they found it. A single photograph of a young woman, maybe thirty, standing in front of a white building, the sea behind her. She looked like Elena. Same nose, same way of holding her shoulders. On the back, in English: "Katerina, 2018."

"You think...?"

"Has to be."

"Dad died in '68."

"So?"

"So the math doesn't work."

"Unless she went back to Greece. That year she said she was taking care of her sick aunt."

"1972."

"Konstantin," Demetri said.

They sat with this. The storage unit had grown hot, even with the door open. Someone a few units down was playing music, old soul, Marvin Gaye maybe.

"She never went back again," Marcus said. "Not once."

"Tickets were expensive."

"We offered. Remember? For her seventieth birthday. We offered to pay for a trip."

"She said she had no one left there."

Marcus held up the photo of Katerina. "She lied."

They returned to the boxes. More secrets tumbled out. A diary, also in Greek, that Demetri could only partially read but seemed to detail Elena's first years in Detroit, her loneliness, her fear. Pay stubs from factories they didn't know she'd worked at. A certificate of completion from a night school English class. A union card.

"I feel like I didn't know her at all," Demetri said.

"We knew her."

"We knew what she let us know."

"That's all anyone knows about anyone."

Demetri looked at his brother. "Is it?"

Marcus went back to sorting. After a while, Demetri said, "I'm sorry about the restaurant."

"Don't."

"I am, though. I knew how much you'd saved. I just—"

"You got scared."

"I had Melanie pregnant with Joey. The economy was tanking. Yeah, I got scared."

"You could have talked to me."

"You don't hear things you don't want to hear."

"That's not true."

"Marcus. Come on."

They were quiet. Marcus opened another box. Baby clothes, theirs probably, wrapped in tissue paper. A christening gown. Tiny shoes.

"She kept everything," he said.

"Yeah."

"Why?"

"I don't know. Maybe she thought we'd want it. For our kids."

"Your kids."

"You could still—"

"I'm forty-two."

"That's not old."

Marcus didn't answer. He was reading another letter, this one in English, from a social worker about "Katerina's adjustment" and "the family's generous support."

"We should contact her," Demetri said. "Katerina."

"And say what?"

"That Elena died. That she was our mother."

"Half-sister."

"Sister."

"Who doesn't know we exist."

"Maybe she does. Maybe Elena told her."

"And if she didn't? We just upend this woman's life?"

"She has a right to know."

"Does she?"

They'd filled eight garbage bags, made three trips to the dumpster. The unit looked no emptier. It was past six now, the sun lower but the heat still pressing.

"I need to eat," Demetri said.

"There's a Coney Island on Eight Mile."

"Leo's?"

"Yeah."

"Okay."

They locked the unit, drove separately. The restaurant was mostly empty. They sat in a booth with cracked vinyl seats. The waitress brought water without asking, menus they didn't need.

"Two Coneys, fries, coffee," Marcus said.

"Same, but Coke," Demetri said.

When she left, Demetri said, "Remember when Mom would bring us here? After church?"

"She'd get the Greek salad."

"Every time."

"Never anything else."

The food came. They ate without talking, the way they had as boys, focused and serious. When they were done, Demetri pushed his plate away.

"What do we do with it all?"

"Keep what matters. Dump the rest."

"What matters?"

Marcus didn't answer.

"The letters matter," Demetri said. "The photos."

"To who?"

"To us. To Katerina, maybe."

"We don't even know if she speaks English."

"She's our sister."

"Half."

"Jesus, Marcus. Why does that matter?"

"I'm just being accurate."

"You're being an asshole."

"Because I want to think about this before we blow up some stranger's life?"

"Because you can't admit that Mom was a person. That she had a life beyond us."

"I know she had a life."

"Do you? Because you seem pretty pissed that she had secrets."

"I'm not pissed."

"You've been pissed since we opened that unit."

Marcus signaled for the check. "I need to get home."

"We're not done."

"We can finish tomorrow."

"I work tomorrow."

"Then the weekend."

"Marcus—"

"What do you want me to say? That I'm thrilled our mother lied to us for forty years? That I'm excited to have a sister in Greece who probably just wants money?"

"Maybe she loved Mom. Maybe Mom loved her."

"Mom loved us."

"Both things can be true."

The waitress brought the check. They both reached for it, then Marcus let Demetri take it.

Outside, the evening had cooled slightly. They stood by their vehicles.

"I can go back Saturday," Marcus said.

"Okay."

"We should translate the letters first. All of them."

"That'll take time."

"We have time."

Demetri unlocked his truck. "You know, she was nineteen when she came here. Nineteen, alone, barely speaking English."

"I know."

"Do you? Because I don't think I ever really thought about it. What that must have been like."

"She made a good life."

"She made a life. I don't know if it was good."

"She raised us. We turned out okay."

Demetri looked at his brother. "Did we?"

Marcus didn't answer. After Demetri drove away, he sat in his car for a while, engine off. He thought about calling someone, but who? He thought about driving back to the storage unit, but what was the point? Everything would still be there tomorrow.

He drove home to his empty apartment. Graded papers. Watched the news. Before bed, he looked at the photo of Katerina again, this woman who shared his blood, standing by the sea in a country he'd never visited. His mother had looked at this same photo, had held it, had kept it with the cookies tin that still, faintly, smelled sweet.

Saturday came gray and humid. Marcus got to the unit first again, but only by minutes. They worked steadier this time, with more purpose. Marcus had brought a scanner from school. They scanned all the photos, all the letters, anything that seemed to matter.

"For Katerina," Demetri said. "If we decide to contact her."

"When," Marcus said, surprising himself. "When we contact her."

They found more: Elena's citizenship papers, her green card from 1959, fragile as moth wings. A wedding dress, not the one they'd seen in photos but a simpler one, maybe from Greece. Sheet music for songs they'd never heard her sing. A cookbook in Greek with notes in the margins, recipes adjusted for American ingredients.

"Look at this," Demetri said. He held up a notebook, pages of English phrases written out phonetically in Greek letters. "She was teaching herself."

"Before the classes."

"Yeah."

At the bottom of one box, wrapped in plastic: a reel-to-reel tape.

"You know anyone with a player?" Demetri asked.

"The school might have one."

They saved it with the letters, the photos, the citizenship papers. The keep pile was small. The throw-away pile filled a dumpster.

By afternoon, they'd cleared most of the unit. Behind the last stack of boxes, they found a sewing machine, the old Singer Elena had used for alterations when they were young.

"She loved that thing," Demetri said.

"Loved is strong."

"She used it every day."

"For work. It was work."

"Maybe she loved the work."

Marcus ran his hand over the machine's black surface, still smooth, barely dusty. "You want it?"

"Melanie doesn't sew."

"Neither does anyone I know."

"We could donate it."

"We could."

But they wrapped it carefully, set it aside. Someone should want it, even if they didn't know who.

The last box was unmarked, taped thoroughly. Inside, more letters, but these were in English, in Elena's hand. All addressed to Katerina, all unsent.

"'My dear daughter,'" Marcus read. "'Today you would be five years old. I wonder if you like school. I wonder if you are brave or shy. I am sending money to your aunt for your shoes...'"

There were dozens. One for every birthday, some for Christmases, Greek Easter. The last one was dated a month before Elena's death.

"'My dear Katerina. I am not well. The doctors say there is little time. I should have been brave. I should have told my sons about you, should have told you about them. But how to explain? How to say I chose them over you? It was not choice. It was survival. But you are loved. You were always loved. Your mother, Elena.'"

They sat on the empty floor of the unit, the letters between them.

"She was going to tell us," Demetri said.

"Maybe."

"She wrote it."

"She wrote a lot of things she never sent."

Outside, thunder rolled across the suburb. The rain started, heavy and sudden, drumming on the metal roof.

"We have to contact her," Demetri said.

"Yeah."

"I can translate the Greek letters. My wife's cousin is fluent, she can help."

"Okay."

"We'll do it right. Explain everything."

"If she wants to know."

"Yeah. If."

They loaded what they were keeping into both vehicles. The rain had steadied to a drizzle. The air smelled clean, like possibility.

"You want to get a beer?" Demetri asked.

"It's three in the afternoon."

"So?"

"Okay."

They went to a bar near the old neighborhood, a place that hadn't changed since the seventies. Dark wood, vinyl stools, a jukebox nobody played anymore. They drank Stroh's because it seemed right.

"I miss her," Demetri said.

"Yeah."

"But I miss someone who didn't exist. Not fully."

"She existed. She just existed in more ways than we knew."

"Is that supposed to be comforting?"

"I don't know. Maybe."

They drank. The bar filled up with shift workers, men and women with tired faces and paint-stained clothes. Elena would have known them, Marcus thought. Would have understood their exhaustion, their Friday afternoon release.

"I want to try again," Marcus said suddenly. "The restaurant."

Demetri looked at him. "Seriously?"

"Not the same plan. Something smaller. But yeah."

"Why now?"

Marcus thought about it. "Because Mom would have wanted us to. Not the restaurant specifically. But us, together, trying something."

"She never said that."

"She never said a lot of things."

"True."

"So?"

Demetri raised his beer. "To trying again."

"And to Katerina."

"To family we don't know yet."

They clinked bottles. Outside, the rain had stopped. Sun broke through the clouds, making everything shine. The world looked new, or at least different, which was maybe enough.

They would write to Katerina. Demetri would translate the letters, all of them, the love and the longing and the careful omissions. They would tell her about Elena's death, about the storage unit, about finding her photograph. They would offer to send her the things they'd saved. They would say they were her brothers, if she wanted brothers.

But that was later. Now they sat in the bar their mother might have known, drinking beer she would have disapproved of, talking about restaurants and risks and the things people keep. The sewing machine was in Marcus's trunk. The letters were in Demetri's truck. Somewhere in Greece, a woman who looked like their mother was living a life they couldn't imagine.

"We should go there," Demetri said. "To Greece."

"Maybe."

"No, really. We should go."

"What if she doesn't want to meet us?"

"Then we'll see where Mom was born. Where she grew up."

"We don't even know the name of her village."

"It's in the letters somewhere. Has to be."

Marcus considered this. A trip with his brother. After five years of silence, a journey to find the parts of their mother they'd never known.

"Okay," he said.

"Really?"

"Yeah. Let's go."

They ordered another round. The bar filled with conversation, laughter, the sounds of people ending one thing and beginning another. Marcus thought about the storage unit, empty now except for the things nobody wanted—the exercise bike, the broken TV, the dresser missing drawers. On Monday, he'd call the facility, tell them they were done. Someone else would rent unit 247, fill it with their own mysteries.

"You know what I keep thinking?" Demetri said. "That she was happy. In those protest photos, with that Konstantin guy, even in those unsent letters. She had this whole rich life we knew nothing about."

"That makes you feel better?"

"Doesn't it you?"

Marcus thought about his mother at her sewing machine, the steady rhythm of the needle, the transformation of fabric into something useful, something that fit. All those years, they'd thought she was just working. But maybe she'd been dreaming, too. Of Konstantin, of Katerina, of the daughter she'd left and the sons she'd kept. Of the life she'd lived and the lives she hadn't.

"Yeah," he said. "It does."

They stayed until evening, talking about things they'd never discussed. Demetri's fear when his first child was born. Marcus's loneliness after his divorce. The way their mother hummed while cooking, always the same tune, probably Greek, probably old. They'd never asked her what it was.

When they finally left, the parking lot was full, the night warm and clear. They stood by their vehicles again, but it felt different this time.

"Next Saturday?" Demetri asked. "To start the translations?"

"Come for dinner. Beth always makes too much food."

"You mean Melanie."

"Right. Melanie. Jesus, where did Beth come from?"

"Your ex-girlfriend from college."

"That was twenty years ago."

"Yeah, well."

They laughed. It felt good, laughing with his brother in a parking lot in Detroit, their mother's secrets safe in their trucks, a sister waiting across an ocean.

"Bring the letters," Marcus said. "All of them."

"I will."

They drove away in different directions but toward the same thing, finally. Toward knowing their mother, toward knowing themselves, toward whatever came next. The city lights spread out around them, each light a life, a story, a collection of things kept and things discarded.

Marcus thought about calling Katerina, hearing her voice, finding out if she sounded like Elena. He thought about standing in a Greek village, understanding finally where his mother had begun. He thought about the restaurant he and Demetri might open, something simple, something that would work.

But first, the letters. First, the careful translation of love and loss and the choices people make to survive. First, learning to see their mother clearly, completely, as the woman she'd been all along.

He drove home through familiar streets made strange by recognition. Every immigrant, every worker, every parent with secrets. Everyone choosing what to tell and what to hide, what to keep and what to let go.

At home, he carried in the sewing machine. Set it on his kitchen table. In the morning, he'd research how to clean it, how to oil it, how to make it work again. Not because he'd use it, but because it had been hers, because it had made things, because it deserved to be maintained.

He opened a beer, sat at the table with the machine. Ran his fingers over its curves, its purposeful design. Somewhere in its metal body, it held the memory of his mother's hands, the thousands of hours she'd spent guiding fabric through its needle. The clothes she'd mended. The hems she'd straightened. The life she'd stitched together, piece by piece, in a country that wasn't hers until it was.

Tomorrow he'd call Demetri. They'd start planning the trip to Greece. They'd write to Katerina, their sister, this woman who'd been loved from across an ocean for decades. They'd try to explain, to connect, to build something from the pieces Elena had left them.

But tonight, he sat with the sewing machine and the silence and the understanding that knowing someone—really knowing them—was impossible and necessary both. That love was what happened in that space between what you knew and what you didn't. That family was the people who helped you carry what was too heavy to lift alone.

The machine gleamed in the kitchen light. Marcus raised his beer to it, to his mother, to the mysteries that made people whole. Then he went to find paper, to write his own letter, to begin.